Clarissa
go away -_-





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Hello. today i am going to talk about my mood swings-.- its the last for 1month- 365 days kind ok not the pms-y kinds so yes its my bad temper/horrible character yea like how i just pmsed my section today 1. i had a very bad time with my braces and i changed embou (will change every month zzz) so it was like the very first time i tried playing after putting my braces. like whole mouth pain? ytd aft i changed braces my teeth was already hurting like fk the orthodontist placed some high tech string to pull my teeth -.- and anw how u expect me to play if my lips dont press on my mouthpiece wtf. and THEN my problem which has been bugging me very long- air leaking out from the sides. my embou is not tight enough :/ and tonguing. omg i was damn shocked last week tjy told me my tonguing got problem since BEFORE SYF?!?!!??!?!?!? HOW COME IDK.... and i honestly couldnt tell. i am not only tone deaf but extremely musically declined. :( and the worse thing is i really sounded very bad so i literally just lost it. then i just left the mpr and practised myself for 2h win anot??? zzzzzzzzzzzzz 2. i really dont like my section. oops enuff said 3. i ccan play my higher notes much easier and nicer and mmore solid like really i never play so nice before BUT SO WHAT I REALLY DONT CARE ABOUT MY HIGH NOTES IM IN 3RDS I FUCKING WANT TO PLAY MY LIP SLURS AND MY LOW NOTES. so yes though i pitch my A?? (High high C once idk 4s? -.-) i really have no fancy for this kind of dandies; 4. i am tooooooooooooo biased -.- like if its around the people i like, even if they kill me i will just ignore (ya ok i wud prolly be dead) but ya if i dont like you... then sorry i cant help it myself. this is seriously sth i hate about myself alot. oh anw my juniors were staring at me like WOW YOU CANT EVEN PLAY THAT face omg i felt like ripping nigel's face apart. ok. 5. i think i am gna change trumpet :( "sharing" with samantha now. that schilky. very good for training cos alot of resistance but then again my condition lidat now TRAIN WHAT. YUP so ignore me if i am like whoa damn quiet damn black face then seriously er... goodluck. cos thats the time where i will hit you if you are within reach and if i feel like smacking your face. i want to go for anger management classes. badly... and those kind where u can control your mood swings one (got ppl as weird as me anot/?) ya the latter more impt. ok. and when ppl say clarissa why you so quiet??? actly im lidat. just tat sometimes i keesiao in sschool then go home and everyth goes downhill. hell??? oh ya another thing i like kpop SONGS but i am not crazy about those cute guys dancing and prancing around. ya ok some of them quite cute but then they all look the same so FORGET IT i cant rmb their names i dont want to be so antisocial!!!! and wtf i spent the whole night looking at differentiation stuck at 1 question asking all the possible yr4 seniors and all gave me different answers. well done singapore education system. kudos. am currently listening to kpop from mnet awards that i just heard LOL omg 2NE1 BEATS GIRLS GENERATION SO ACT CUTE YUCKS i like my instrument, but i dont like my section :( i wish i was in trombones or tubaaaaa (if i were a guy) back to top?

meowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww taiwan was damn cool
i wished he was a girl. then we can room together!!!!!!! LOL ANW
had alot of stupid and queer friend problems-.-
they shouldnt even be called a problem because the source of it
is damn damn damn, stupid.
k goodnight meeting tjy and band tmrw! <3 back to top?

its been really horrible this year
made perhaps one of the most painful decisions of my life
--- quitting SC but staying in band
and also cos i needed to juggle my studies
and my bsp scholarship which i cannot screw up.
i miss my sc badge :( its still with me and all but
mehh ive been a prefect since pri3 and suddenly
im like at a loss :/
i improved alot this year i would say
in terms of studying
and character i hope?
but my results are like fuck
seriously 1 yr ago i was just saying that if i got this kind of gpa
i should just kill myself.
ok nvm -.-
i think this year began with a rough start
therefore i was always playin the catch up game
which wasnt really done till june/july?
after syf, sydney, bsp hunan...
but im damn proud of my sciences this year
i really am.
i swear i wouldnt screw up my languages
like how i did this year
and i must get an A for lit and history -____-
my math ah. idk. on the verge on throwing in the towel
its the subject i really wanna do the best in
srsly? so easy to score math i know oso!!!!
and two pretty A+ appears on your report card
meow :(
ive been damn rude this yr oso
to my parents
and some of the ppl whom i really hate
have to make it up to my parents :(
i am such a bitch!! seriously ugh
my mood this year has been so queer
i really just go high for one moment then the next moment
i go around hating the world, hating this and that
idk why oso :( i really dowanna be lidat...
oh emotionally unstable most of the times also
my friends...
its weird how i dont like some ppl
but cos idk how to tell them that i just pretend nth's on...
so dumb. in the end im suffering,
being tossed around everywhere like some
unwanted plastic bag.
nnnnn clarissa... stop being such a wimp. back to top?

Wonder if you knew how much i hate u actly
asshole, x1234444444
year 3 has been worse than a roller-coaster ride all gone wrong
its like some bad nightmare which i cant get out
rofl i have bryan anw
so im not gonna care abt those kind of things anymore
ily ^BT <3 back to top?

omyfuck
watch out people
im gonna fucking prove all of you wrong
i can do this.
those fags who dont believe i can do it
sick and tired of always being a substitute/ replacement
i want respect.
ugh i have never been so fucking pissed before back to top?

i think im the biggest loser on earth
nowadays i cant sleep. sucks max
i just keep staying awake.
i dont wanna think about anything
but i rly wanna get out of this trap
everyone treats me like shit.
treat them as friends
they treat you like shit
hot and cold
i just need one best friend.
i dont friggin care how old u are
what race.
i just need one.
someone i can tell everything to
someone who will tell me their side too
someone who genuinely cares for me
sometimes i prefer if u tell me straight in the face
you dont like me
rather than covering your lies
so irritating i really cant take it
没人爱的神经病。i guess im rly one
i feel like learning jap/korean suddenly
真的要爆了 back to top?

its been almost 1year
i cant bring myself to forget you, really
my first...
i regret it, k?
glad to see you doing well now
capt eh.
asshole la i hate u also -.- back to top?